Translated post: https://www.facebook.com/forest.fox.37/posts/pfbid02dPpaDFW1TeRuUKJKDVLCrr39hSUQDpwgf6iKk9rDoqE7scqPUK4MBJCQP2qCYifkl From that point on he began to be more controlling with me, he always wanted me to show him a screenshot of my conversations with anyone I spoke to or had the slightest interaction with, and if he saw that they acted affectionate towards me he would go crazy and was when he began the practice of forcing me to do things otherwise he would "let me" this was always what made me do things "Do this or I will leave you" since my disorder has the fear of abandonment as its main problem, so it was something Quite sensitive for me to hear this. It was from then on that I began to distance myself from my friends because either they had a problem with Mapocho or because they had treated me in an affectionate way and he did not tolerate it (even though we were not a couple at that time), so gradually My circle was shrinking until all my 24/7 interaction was with him. It was from there that he asked the crucial question “I like you a lot. Do you want to be my boyfriend Ethan?” I didn't know what to do, I didn't feel ready for something like that and I didn't feel romantic attraction for him or anyone, so I told him no. This led him to insist every day and as the days went by, the proposals were less and less friendly "It makes me angry that you keep saying no, if I ask you to be my boyfriend it's because I want to be" like that until I mentally exhausted myself. and on September 17, 2020 I finally said yes. The days didn't take long and the first fight occurred, to which I kept quiet and did what he wanted because otherwise he would let me. And so there were quite a few fights until it escalated to another level when he asked me, “I want to see you naked because it's something that boyfriends do.” This gave me a strange feeling. Was I seriously going to send photos to someone supposedly 9 years older than me? So I told him no. At first he simply agreed without any further complaints and instead, he commanded whenever he wanted, reaching the point of not even asking. But clearly the request “Can I see you naked?” Come on, if you don't do it, you're not a good boyfriend," that's when I finally agreed, but on the condition that I was the one who had the will to do it and not because he ordered it. He respected it for a short time, until he eventually got tired and started demanding that I show him my nudes, giving me disrespectful adjectives and making up that I was passing nudes to my friends and not him. He went to the point of threatening to leave me alone if I didn't show him a nude of me and that made me feel terrible since I genuinely didn't want to continue showing my body to someone who became too insistent and who even attacked me psychologically. Eventually the fights had a daily rhythm, which was beginning to seriously affect my mind and was beginning to have a strong impact and that was when I realized something that had always been present since the first fight. I was afraid, afraid of being alone since he had distanced me from everyone, afraid of all the insults and denigrations to which I was exposed with him, afraid of Mapo. He knew how to manipulate me since he already knew how to play with it, and how to make me do what he wanted, I was already his puppet master and his obedient puppet. But, I was not happy, I had been suffering from a serious problem of depression for quite some time, which he shortly after began to make fun of, saying things like "You're a f**king edgy piece of shit, you're on edge all the time." ** you're sad, you can't help me” or “Stop being a depressive and fix me, you spend all day sleeping, you're useless, you don't know how to do anything” It had really broken me to pieces, a person who regularly told me “I love you” within a few seconds gave me a horrible emotional blow where I questioned myself since the person who claims to love me tells me these horrible things, makes me cry and insults me for crying Am I someone bad? That's when I couldn't stand it anymore, and I began to not allow myself to be denigrated or insulted, I answered him coldly or I didn't answer until the 23,094 apology messages appeared, this led to more friction than usual when he realized that little Little by little I began to lose control over myself. That's when I started telling him that we should break up for our own good, and he always got down on his knees saying no because “he alienated all of his friends for choosing me” and things like that. There were several threats like this until I convinced him to give us some time, and it was during this time that I discovered more things that he had hidden from me. Like, for example, during that time we spent together, he proposed to another person, but this person rejected him. Furthermore, I discovered (by his mistake) that he is 11 years older than me, which made him 25 when we met and I was 14 naturally (Although according to what I have been told, he usually says that he is 26 currently). It was then that, after returning from that time, and after several fights later, we broke up. We agreed that we ended on “good terms” and I continued my life until something happened again. In conversation with a friend, he told me that Mapocho had been in a relationship with him but that it ended because Mapo had started a relationship with me without having ended the other one, in addition, that M8 had actually had quite a few partners (while M8 told me that I was his first relationship). And shortly after, a friend told me that Mapo had been saying things about me behind my back which are: 1- That you manipulated him and always made him feel guilty 2- That you used it to meet people and become popular 3- That you gr00ed to minors 4- That you have a server with popus where they hold meetings and ask a minor to turn on the camera and undress 5- That you were unfaithful because you sent nudes to other people outside the relationship, leave us abandoned 6- That you are very ugly (about your physique) 7- That you always followed him and only wrote to him when you were “high”, something like that 8- That you defamed him with others, distancing his friends from him 9- that you also used it to learn to draw and that you stole its style 10- that you got upset with him because he said he wasn't “very horny” and didn't roleplay, and he told me that you told him that since you didn't want to do anything horny with him, you were going to look for other people to sext with At the time this made me quite angry since I was going around saying those things and I had no evidence to support what I was saying, but I still tried to convince several of his friends (and I convinced several of them). And these behind-the-back sayings were not limited only to me, but to several of my acquaintances, friends and relatives who were directly affected by this problem. This led to me uploading some of the evidence I have of the abuses that Mapocho committed, but never mentioning the name, only showing the content of these (and which are still in my FB gallery), which caused a reaction in him making a defense statement against something that no one had accused him of since no names were revealed, for the most part victimizing himself saying things like “These are just rumors without evidence that have been circulating and reaching several people in my circle of friends, But I don't know who is responsible." I have a whole collection of evidence, especially in his old Messenger account and on his Twitter, but not on Telegram since every time he got angry he deleted the chat and nothing else could be done. Some I have already published and others (if necessary) I will do so later since in reality many people are involved and they all ended badly with this person so the amount of evidence, testimonies and witnesses is quite large so it is something that it takes time. But, anyway, this post is more than anything to let go a little of everything that tormented me inside and wouldn't let me be, it's not a fun thing to clarify. I am not asking you to cut off the relationship nor am I going to do anything if you don't, I am a faithful believer that people have their own criteria. Like I said, it's a vent post and it's something I needed to get out of my system. There is still a lot of work to be done inside, but taking another step is important