1. When I was young I was bullied and tortured so learning in school was always an order
2. I dropped out at 15 with no education or learning, everything in my life started burning
3. at the age of 17 I had my first date but before I knew it I was way too latE
4. I was raped and abused for things I done wrong, there was no concent and the years were long,
5. with constant threats and abuse to boot,  I broke up with him and started a new root,
6. I moved in with my brother who turned out abusive,  he would bully me and be very intrusive,
7. after a year in 2017 I got with my boyfriend,I wanted to be clean,
8. after a year I found out something bad, I found out he was convicted with something I might add,
9. back in 2010 he was convicted of a crime, something so vile and disgusting in time,
10. but when I found this out I said the past is the past, because people can change slow but not fast,
11. I thought it didn't matter but how wrong was I to see.
12. 2 police raids later my anxiety was High , when I was alone in a corner I would always lay down and cry,
13. most of my stuff was taken in a flash it was gone, but my relationship is what made me Strong,
14. in April 2020 He broke up with me for a friend, soon I was replaced there was nothing I could do,
15. I was soon made homeless with nowhere to go, a friend then helped me I did see a glow,
16. I did have a crush on him but he wasn't looking so no,
17. I found a place in May I was happy as anything, tho 4 days later my heart got a sting,
18. my baby my pride was stolen from me, my motorcycle helped me with my anxiety,
19. it was found a week later burnt out found in the woods my heart was devistated  it wasn't very good,
20. I got a new bike on the 22nd of May I looked to myself and I was here to stay,
21. I just got a job in July I may add but something went down that is quite sad,
22. my landlord said he had a problem with my anxiety, but I knew full well he didn't understand me,
23. he said it was unacceptable he couldn't stand it no more, he kicked me out and told me i had 24 hours to get out of the door,
24. on the 24th of July my motorcycle broke down , I had to call help to get to my friends home town
25. with 2 weeks at a friend's and a constant amount of struggling , they kicked me out too because they had no understanding,
26. they didn't understand how my mental health works, what a bunch of jerks,
27. they are no longer my friends, I moved back in with my perants to live, I now have a job but nothing to give,
28. my anxiety is heavy my anxiety high no reason to cry no reason to lie,
29. but I can't help with covid being around to feel so alone and strictly bound,
30. I can't wear a mask due to my severe anxiety , as when I was younger people trapped me,
31. I suffer alot specially in small spaces, but sometimes it hurts specially around faces,
32. people who see me out on the street I can't cope on my own I need people to meet,
33. but I'm so alone with no one around just cuddled to a plushie being sad with a frown,
34. my computer buzzing away in the background to play,  but instead I'm in bed just feeling upset All day
35. im writing this poem feeling like a drone, With nowhere to escape trapped in a dome,
36. just stopping and starting checking what rhymes, Only to be gently hearing small little chimes........